Things I Can't Say
Since my father died
there are things I can't say
things I won't say
things, I've not words to say
becoming anew does not take away the bad
growing small does not remove pain
since my father died
there are things I can't say
things I won't say
things, I haven't any words to say
that we will get better at getting better
that we will eradicate the bad and leave only room for good
that the good becomes fragmented and the bad, a memory
that I will forget you ever existed
that we existed
that many days ago, the sun shone
your body was still warm
if you were waiting on an island for me,
I would not be upset
like the Flies, like the Pearl, like small Mice and Big Men
you changed me
It doesn't pain you like it pains me
like it pained me
like I am pained
I can see it, but I don't know how to get there
I can see you, but I've not a way to get there
like I can see it, but there exists too many ways to get there
2021